Breakups

Breakups. Heavy topic I know.

Breakups suck. They really really suck.

No matter which side you are on in the breakup it still hurts when the relationship is over.

Just this weekend I broke up with my boyfriend. He lived an hour away, and the relationship had just really fizzled out. I am young. Let me say that first and foremost. I know nothing about love, or marriage or even relationships. Maybe I am not supposed to be sad about this breakup since I am the one who did the breaking. I am sad though. We had a good thing and I am extremely sad to see it over. It wasn't his fault. He didn't make me start to hate him. I just did. Hating him was not healthy though. So I broke it off.  Now he hates me. But that's okay. He should hate me.

But what's not okay is the fact that my best friend has also decided to hate me over this decision. Her boyfriend was best friends with mine. So now that we are broken up she has decided with him over the ten years of friendship we have together. I am honestly more sad about this than I am about the breakup itself. Because he has a right to hate me. She doesn't.

I've been eating cookies and watching Gilmore Girls though so it's going to get better. I may get fatter but it will get better.

I've honestly cried harder over breakups in books and on tv than I have about mine. That's not healthy I know but c'mon. Who didn't cry when Christina and Owen broke up on Grey's Anatomy?  I' actually listening to their soundtrack right now tbh.

It's been hard. I only did what I thought was best. It doesn't feel nice to be hated for doing what I knew was best. They will eventually see though. It really was for the best.

Sincerely,
Sam
p.s. Sorry for a short depressing post. Here's a pic of my dog to make it better.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Fandoms, Fandoms. Fandoms

Fandom: the fans of a particular person, team, fictional series, etc., regarded collectively as a community or subculture.

It's safe to say we are all a fan of something. Whether it be a celebrity, a book, a tv show. We all have something or someone in our lives we enjoy watching or reading about.

I personally collect fandoms like treasures. I am a enthusiast of many, many shows, books, and movies.

That sentence sounds really weird to someone who may not particularly be involved in an active fandom, but to someone who is it seems perfectly normal to obsess.

My first fandom was Harry Potter, I was ten, and convinced that I would be receiving a Hogwarts letter the following year. I was the weird little girl who wanted to play wizards instead of Barbie's, and who would rather read than do to the school dance. (I went anyway here is the terrifying photo proof.)

 

The years after that have been wonderful, geeky years. I have read a lot and watched a lot.

Right now I am obsessed with Supernatural. I even met the guy who plays my favorite character Castiel last year.

 

His real name is Misha Collins and he is amazing. I'm currently saving up to meet him again next February.

Fandoms are a big part of my life. I have met some great people through fandoms and some of them have become amazing friends I hope I keep for life.

The fandoms and the people within them that I have encountered have been great for the most part. They can be the kindest, most uplifting people put there. But we all know there can be trolls as well. If any of you trolls are reading this then curse you trolls. You make my bitter, grumpy side come out.

The best part about fandoms other than the people to me though, is the fanfiction. I love fanfiction so so much. it makes my heart sing. I've always said I want to review fanfictions like some people do books so if that would interest you please leave me a comment.

 

That's all for tonight. I'm off to drown myself in feels and make cookies. Hope you've had a good day. Happy Weekend!

Sincerely,
Sam

Hello Internet.

Hello Internet. Welcome to my blog.

This is technically the second blog I have started, but the first one sadly failed because I just didn't stick with it.

I plan to stick with this blog though. As the name of the blog alludes to, this blog is about me making sure I live by my fullest, sincerest self.

This is just as introduction to my blog so I won't be too long winded.

Goals I have for this blog:

• Post Weekly, more if I have the time
• Do not give up
• Be honest
• Be myself
• Don't focus on anything but my content

This blog is my own personal project, and I plan to stick with it, even if no one is reading. Because I'm not doing this for the views. I am doing this for myself.

A little introduction to me:

My name is Sam, I am a senior in high school, and I am homeschooled.
I am using this blog as a place to express my thoughts, no matter what anyone else thinks.
I am using this blog to become the realest, truest self I can. Because if I don't know who I am in this world, than what the hell do I know?

See you all soon.

Sincerely,
Sam